Maintaining Your Authentic Spirit in a Superficial World Part I

I must admit,
I almost bought into the world’s cliché understanding of “balance”.

As rooted as I had become in my true sense of self, the doubts and degrading words of others still lingered somewhere within me.

Though I constantly propelled forward on my path, guided by spirit. Deep down inside I questioned whether naysayers were right and if I was too blinded, optimistic and possibly misleading myself.

​You see,
When words of doubt come from some of the individuals you love the most, invest in and give opportunity. It’s hard not to question yourself.
I questioned my confidence, my intuition, my motives, my beauty, my success and my entire foundation.

I had “friends” joke about my business as if I was a failure, saying things to the next person as if what I had built was a joke and they were better than me.
I had previous business associates attempt to defame my name, passing judgement on me as if I was an egotistical monster who wanted success only for myself and did not care for them.
The man I loved belittled me subtly, slighting my physical “flaws” and the bed I slept on.
Family, who tried to repaint me as nothing more than a weed head and college dropout with unreasonable dreams.

I grown to view my heart and authenticity as my greatest asset.
By following the direct guidance of source, I’ve acquired things I never even knew were possible.

When I began this journey, I had one request; to be to others, what I needed the most as a child.
At time this seemed like an admirable request.
I did not have visions of being like any star, being featured on any show or magazine.
My heartfelt and honest inquiry to the universe was simply to love and be loved.

​I say I almost bought into the world’s cliché understanding of “balance” because I almost, allowed them to convince me that who I had become was not enough.
As if working on my spirit steadily to increase my personal magnetism was not enough and I had to dibble and dabble in worldliness.

In between 2018-2019 I had a car accident that changed my life and realigned my vision.
I was given the opportunity to start anew, with clear instructions to move past those who left me for dead.
Not a phone call, visit or message of encouragement came from those I helped the most.

I isolated myself, flourished abundantly and came into a version of power that finally seemed like my physical environment was aligning with my spiritual work.

After reprogramming my subconscious mind for years upon years, my manifestations seemed to be coming in bigger and bolder than ever.

After taking 12 swords out of my back and allowing my wounds to heal, it almost seemed as if the universe was waiting for me to remove interferences to fruitfully bring in my birthright of abundance.

TO BE CONTINUED