I always knew I was destined for greatness.
I've never felt at home among any group, and even my family home didn't feel much like "home." My childhood is filled with a multitude of powerful and radiant memories, however, the closer I got to adolescence, the more numb I became to the ways of the world.
I can still envision the apartment's living room in which I expressed to my mother and stepfather that I felt left out. Everyone in the home carried the same last name except for me. I requested that my name be changed to the name they all carried so proudly so I too could be a part of this American dream.
However, it never happened.
Today I am glad that I never assumed the last name of my stepfather.
my inner child still longs for a family dynamic I can call my own and feel one with.
I'm grateful the changes were never made because the truth of all that surrounded me at the time was too much for my 7 year old mind to decipher. Now, at 22 I see the unhealthy ways and traditions of the people I love the most.
A Detached Father:
Even though I am only his stepdaughter, the lack of direct provision and protection of this man has impacted my life in more ways than I was previously able to accept. The worst part of it all is, I've never witnessed him actually love or show compassion towards my mother. I do however, recall times where he would beat her and in times where she was hurt, he struggled to comfort her. As I grew, I learned that his detachment from his mother played a major role in his actions. As a result, I learned to understand rather than judge him from a space of my own feelings of hate.
An Absent Father:
My biological father made his presence known in words, but not action. I assume he was too busy, and blamed the NSA for keeping me away from my father. I needed someone to blame, after all it was too much for my 11 year old heart to comprehend that an important piece of my existence didn't see a reason to put effort into building an in person relationship with me. I think my father is the first man that expressed my beauty in words but made me feel ugly with his actions. I felt abandoned.
Today I still struggle with identity crisis, I carried his name for so long to no avail.
Our last visit wasn't a good one. I often get notified by men that I am utterly intimidating, I never paid too much attention to those words until my father confirmed them.
I'll never forget my sister's wedding day, my father saw me and said nothing. It was almost as if I was a ghost who didn't exist. He treated me much like guys do when they meet you online, but are afraid to speak to you in person.
Another opportunity to revive a part of me that was dying, missed.
I took it upon myself to do my own healing and put the responsibility to heal us in my hands.
However, I am starting to believe that I may have to purge alone as I grow.
A Battered Mother: As I experience myself as a free spirited young woman, I feel one with the inner child of my mother. The inner child I see when she laughs or when she cries. My mother is human. She is not perfect, but none of us are, What I do know is, my mother sacrificed for all us and never thought twice about doing it. She is my rock and I often feel like I have to be in her corner when everyone else forgets that she too deserves compassion, love and nurturing. I often wish she took on the responsibility to be more kind in her speech, after all life and death exists within the tongue. I often wish the negative commentary spawned from the seat of her frustration didn't impact my subconscious mind and become the voice in the back of my head. Sometimes I'm way too hard on myself and nothing seems good enough. However, I've allowed myself to be a catalyst for the growth and renewal of this matriarchy. Understanding the stresses of the world that can become a domino effect of negativity.
No one ever says look how much we've damaged her yet she survived, they just simply say look how damaged she is.
TO BE CONTINUED
Judgement day has arrived & there's a plot twist. . .
We'll be living in the midst of it till November 2018.
Jupiter in Scorpio is here to transform our relationship with Sex, Money & Power.
"If you knew better, you'd do better"
At this point,
You're either hysterically laughing in an evil genius demeanor or opting to rip your own heart straight out of your chest.
But Whateverrrrrrr you're feeling, be cautious!
Scorpio is the magician of the zodiac.
It is the hidden parts of ourselves, from which most manifest unknowingly. (Thus become a magnet for )
What we tend to hide, can sometimes be a direct reflection of what we most identify with..
In regards to the body:
Scorpio represents the genitals
Which reiterates that "it is the hidden parts of ourselves"
Yes, my loves. . . . when secrets compile they spill!
It's time for the methodological disposition of imposing trauma via sexual abuse/perversion, in order to impose control, to be eradicated!.
As a result, all those in power & involved will be exposed!
Scorpio deals with 3 Key Things: Inner Psyche | Sex| Secrets
Where did the following transits take place in your chart?
Jupiter conjunct Venus 7 degrees in Scorpio 11-13-17
Sun in Scorpio October 23rd- November 21st
New moon in Scorpio 11-18-17
The longest and most prevalent transit above is Jupiter in Scorpio.
You see. . . .
Jupiter comes bearing gifts but sometimes it can give way too much!
WHEN SECRETS COMPILE, THEY SPILL!
*Screams at Universe
"What more do you want from me?" lol
If you're scrambling to keep your skeletons in the closet?
The truth will invoke life changing transformations!
Fear nothing, transmute everything!
Focus on what you're passionate about!
Today's the day to commit to your goals with a new sense of urgency for your purpose.
Master your craft in silence!
Be self assured and better than you were 5 minutes ago.
What you feel and affirm will manifest during this time, so keep good thoughts circulating and attach them to that which you share strong emotions for!
Divine timing is on your side!
The best time to plant seeds for magic to happen is right between Scorpio and Sagittarius season!
"The underlying work before the expansion and discovery."
Revisiting 3 Key Things: Inner Psyche | Sex| Secrets
(Approaching These Concepts as Reoccurring Themes)
The Inner Psyche : Highlights a time for deep healing and revealing.
Allow death to come in and end a completed/ outdated cycle. It is mandatory that we release what no longer serves us so rebirth and renewal can take place.
Sex: An orgasm is one of the most powerful manifestation tools (following blood sacrifice).
Highlights the power within and the ability to create from that which you feel strongly about.
Secrets: Highlights the need to be tactful and witty.
All cards do not have to be spread out on the table for others to see. Strategize in silence and allow your evolution to speak for itself.
New moon in Scorpio is ushering us into our cocoons for evolution|
See you on the other side beautiful butterfly 🦋
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Let the heart lead, and the mind follow.
This is an Ode to your new and improved sense of self.
Financial breakthroughs, creativity in business and new beginnings in love await you NOW.
Where is Leo present in your chart?
For the next 18 months allow the universe to assist change in the areas of your life where you lack confidence, and authority over self.
Pay attention to the houses that are heavily influenced by Leo, its sister signs or empowering planets. . .
Utilize the drive, courage and individualism of the Lion/Lioness to funnel energy into the areas where you need it the most.
For Example: If majority of your fire energy is in your 5th house, allow your children, roots, family and home to be inspiration to shift your career, love scenario, financial situation etc.
Have you made a list of what serves you vs. what doesn't?
August 7th's Lunar Eclipse pre warned us to either let go of what no longer served us, or transform the way we were relating to it.
We are now a couple days away from Virgo season.
HOWEVER; with Mars in Leo, Venus in Leo, Rahu in Leo and the fresh energy of the Eclipse in Leo, we are still encouraged to pursue our passions with the heart of a child and nobility of a King.
The sun transitioning into Virgo, calls for us to not just be confident and courageous. . .
Be consistent! Be precise! Be effective!
Virgo paired with Leo will set ablaze to whatever path you choose!
Here is where we find universal reasoning for everything. . .
Solar Eclipses in fire signs conjure fast moving energy!
So! . . . just a couple days after the Solar Eclipse we are blessed with the energy that will both ground and protect us as we drive forward with high energy, & optimism.
Be discerning, some things appeared to have ended but a break was needed, in order for the situation to evolve.
However, there are also triggers that will simply resurface, as a test of your growth.
Have NO fear!
The clarity you seek is being uncovered at a rate that teaches you discipline and self reliance.
Remember, Leo is an embodiment of the inner child
Void of doubt and filled with infinite inspiration to expand and grow.
A beautiful balancing act is taking place!
As for your goals . . .
If you want it
affirm it and take action.
NOW IS THE TIME!
|Show the universe how you prepare for your abundance and open your heart to receive.
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Meet Your Writer✨
Melanin Reigns is a spiritual counselor, freelance writer and multifaceted creator.
As a performing artist with the Speak Life Tour, she takes on music, written/spoken word, and hosting as a form of mentorship and a way to give back to the community.
On first and third Tuesdays Mrs.Reigns hosts “The Mentoring Clinic” on WOLB 1010, with intent to shine a light on community businesses and organizations. More than just a writer or entrepreneur she is 360 degrees of versatility.
The motivation of her efforts is powered by her love for the inner child and rewiring of the human heart and psyche.
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